TWENTY ONE  

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I

Yes it’s true, not easy but true! it shattered inside … like a ticking bomb.
No feeling was the premise.
No fear no anger no love.
Love is what started it all.
It crawled slowly…a gaze at a time, the promise of hands touching, unspoken words…it all added up.
The sum of it’s parts stacked like rocks.
Heavy load.
It must be contained, it’s weight released.
But how?
It expanded, it chocked, it grew heavier and heavier by the minute by the hours…
The space in between unbearable.
Perhaps it’s only passion, perhaps nostalgia and regret,
perhaps time lost, life not lived… forgotten.

II
Who woke her up?
How long has she been asleep?
The look in the mirror was that of a stranger… the eyes of a raven.

III
I wonder if you know, if you heard it happening… exploding  loudly…
pieces everywhere.
I didn’t hear it either, or saw it coming… it happened: You did.
Who are you?

IV
A confession when spoken changes everything… it creates an ongoing current.
Once out,  nothing can contain it, even if its a momentary truth.
It will get hold of you, lure you, convince you that it’s real and there is nothing you can do. Such a trickster! 

V
I am the one you’ve been looking for.
The promise of freedom and endless happiness.
I am the wild horse, the cunning fox, the all knowing eagle.

VI
She spilled herself all over the table… a broken jar of sticky yoghurt moving quietly… inexorably towards the edge.
She wanted to implode and become dust… disappear.
She did the opposite.
It rained words until she got too deep.
She wanted to scream, she couldn’t…she sank instead.

VII
What are you going to do about it? Yes, you!
It was you who started this remember?
… a soft echo.

VIII
Oh, the heartbreak!
I’m unravelling silently, wet, unnoticed… traveling slowly through each of my heart chambers.
Is it possible to be loved again?

IX
I am late.
The promise of us in the sun strolling, holding hands… the sound of our breaths sweating in unison… your hair and my hair tangled… our smiles together in complicity.
You have only started gathering memories, strokes… star-dust.
Me, I have accumulated a universe including a black hole menacing to swallow it all.
You are a newborn sun, bright as my heart can take.
I am a red dwarf about to implode and give birth to a new universe.

X
She sits by the tree and buries her feet in the ground by its roots.
She is the tree: arms stretch out and high, flowers blooming, crowning her beauty. She is majestic but she doesn’t know it.
Birds come and go, eating from her fruit. She loves them all,  but there’s only one she wants to keep.

XI
Attachment is a natural disaster. 
It strands your willingness to grow… it tangles all desires, all dreams  and turns them into paper, signatures and bills.
No, do not let it catch you on a starry night, do not let it promise you eternal life… Run! Run as fast as you can.

XII
Im not yours to hold or keep or own. I’m not your scale,  your window or escape door. I am only pointing a mirror straight back at you.
I can’t love you more than you already do.

XIII
Love.
The forbidden fruit that started the fall.
It wasn’t love but the illusion of love who took hold of it all…
A false deity who called itself god.
It announced its promise as the only way, the golden ticket, the end of the road.
It was him who one morning held her heart hostage and placed that ticking bomb…
The rest is history,  you know how it  goes!

XIV
Purple clouds crossed the blue vastness… red hues and a stroke of black.
She opened her boxed heart with a large key delivered to her in a dream.
All possible explanations were taken out carefully, as if by a well rehearsed magician:
First the whys, then the hows and at the end the truth all wrapped up in layers and layers of cotton candy.

There it was… a hidden jewel.
Her eyes covered in night sky, his  ocean gaze looking shyly…
waiting for her to just say it.
Did she?
Maybe.

Emotions are untouched islands until they get discovered.
Uncharted territory, difficult to map out.

XV
STOP
Stop right there…  
All that guess-work is futile. 
Reality does not feel. It is measurable. It simply works or it doesn’t… no grey areas, no hesitation, no room for feedback. 

Gravity exists like a heavy burden, a reminder we are bound to our feet, no room for wings. 

XVI
Seize the opportunity!
Take my hands, my eyes, my unwavering love for you.
Can’t you see?
I am your next big story,  your overture… the passage to a whole new world.

Too much is at stake. 

XVII
The dream is dissolving…
I am a drop of water left on the counter: unseen, untouched, left to dry.
I am a lonely seed traveling far through barren land, looking for fertile ground.

XVIII
There is only a full moon… solitary, sterile, illuminating nothing.
Her face hiding in a mask.
His, hiding in a crowd.
The dance of the knights commenced in bright reds, all gathered and ready for the sacrifice.

Will I have the strength to hold my instincts intact?
Will I keep the facade of a well rehearsed act?
The hollow laugh, the glitter covering my hands….
All I want is to touch yours!

My heart bleeds fire.
I’m cold.

XIX

I wish I knew you when I was young
The sun is gone… I can only share my moods with you.
Now it’s all quiet and gone…
Tangled in sparkle and fluff.

 

Morning came and with it … light.
The flowers have fallen from the tree… their scent lifting the spell.
She is stronger than ever.
No birds, no ravens, no cunning fox.

The mask is back on the wall.

XX

She had to shed her skin… crack it open, all scales, all bones, all dusty feathers… It meant focus and determination, commitment and pain. 

There’s been always the suspicion that something was left behind, unanswered, broken, overlooked and untried. It had to be found, chased and dragged out! All those layers of boredom stuck to the bones.. all the comfort for nothing.. adventures quite dead. 


XXI
Why did you have to tell him?
Why did you break the spell, the wall, the glass box.
I feel naked and unsure
Can’t hold your gaze without holding my breath!
… Solitude.

 

The truth hurts the strong and the weak. 
All secrets revealed. 
Nothing will be the same again. 
Beauty lies beneath the storm, everything washed clean. 
Reborn.

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Cintamani Stone & My Activation from the stars.

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Cintamani

This narration is based on personal experience and is not claiming any scientific proof of any kind regarding receiving and being in contact and activated by a Cintamani stone (1) This is a subjective, first personal account of what was experienced and seen during a deep meditation and under the guidance of inner truth, usually refered as the higher self or the I AM presence. It is this presence who summoned me, conversed with me and showed me visions.

 I have connected succesfuly with my I AM presence…

I was guided towards the 8th dimension  in stages as I was listening to 108 OMS chanting meditation.(2)   I received the light encoded version of my physical Cintamani stone…

The GOLDEN light coded stone from Sirius was reunited through me with the 3Dimensional stone I held in my hands, thus creating a sacred trinity.

“The Cinatamani stone started working with you the moment it was on its way to you…”

It certainly cleansed me deeply the moment I received it as I was struck by a strong fever and flu like symptoms that lasted almost 7 days… This thourough cleanse was needed first in order for the stone to be activated by my I AM presence.

The etheric version of the stone was placed inside my Pineal Gland, the seat of my soul, and a powerful, unbreakable channel/pillar of light was activated within my chore, my heart centre, all my glands (specially the pituitary) and my chakras… creating an all-lighted-strong cocoon of protection and light around me. I could also see a light pyramid activated around my house so only the highest of energies could be received and channeled. My home was shown to me to become a sacred space for gatherings and initiation.

I was prompted to commit to my mission fully.

I was shown the many times I surrendered to the will of my I AM presence and how my life direction was steered into alignment with my mission.  I was reminded how recently I asked for this alignment again and it had been granted.

“You will be shown the path you must lead towards your spiritual mission and personal ascension”

I was told about my stellar lineage: First Pleyadian,  worked with the creator race in Venus and alongside Sirius science and technology programs and also part of the benevolent Andromedans.

“All your past has been liberated, all contracts nullified”  I was assured I would be able to reunite with my stellar family and travel through star systems once again!  I was then shown the importance of the self work I did following the work of Dr. Katherine May(3) and how commitment and discipline is required once again, through a high vibrational diet which I had got more flexible with overtime …this time with the guidance of Ascended Master Serapis Bey(4)

I was also assured that no mayor transformation was longer needed in my life as I have done it already and have done the inner work..“You would keep on your spiritual mission within your current circumstances for the time being…” I was then shown the healing center and community I have envisioned for  a long time.

I was reminded and shown codes of light that reside within me, the seed of light that connects me directly to source. I was also shown my connection the the Agarthan network who have been in contact with me  through dreams in the past.

“Pay attention to your dream state…they are encoded with messages”

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I have been activated and given the template, the framework for my ascension…

I will be tested and in time I will ACTIVATE and MANIFEST my personal ascension on the next wave. I had a very clear vision of the planetary ascension process, I could see it happening and successfully carried on… In order to achieve this I had to keep the buzzing feeling I was experiencing, the complete peace of mind and presence of my divine self and the pure love that was spreading from my heart centre towards each nucleus of my cells.

“From now on, you need to observe every single thought, word and action you have you say and you take so it is of the highest vibration, of the purest love and live and work this way”

I am ready, so it is, so it starts, so I AM my I AM presence, the I AM that I AM.

15/7/17

-I was ON and OFF.

NOTES:

(1) Refrences about Cintamani Stones:

https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/sociopolitica/sociopol_shambahla11.htm

If you feel guided to get a Cintamani Stone:

http://2012portal.blogspot.co.nz/2015/06/cintamani.html

(2)  108 OM Meditation I usually meditate facing the sun for 33 minutes at a time. OM meditation helps me focus on my inner truth and allow most of my thoughts to disipate quickly.  

(3) http://www.whoneedslight.org

(4) https://www.summitlighthouse.org/inner-perspectives/serapis-bey-master-ascension-temple/

Other posts which may inspire you towards inner transformation and ascension:

http://thewakeupexperience.eu/current-energies-and-symptoms-for-the-different-ascension-waves/

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